KRISTINE

To “let go” does not mean to stop caring. It means I can’t do it for someone else.

To “let go” is not to cut myself off. It’s the realization that I can’t control another.

To “let go” is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To “let go” is not to try to change or blame another. It’s to make the most of myself.

To “let go” is not to care for, but to care about.

To “let go” is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To “let go” is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To “let go” is not to be in the middle, arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.

To “let go” is not to deny, but to accept.

To “let go” is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To “let go” is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To “let go” is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

To “let go” is to fear less and to love more.

i cant think of something to do when I saw my USB–i opened my pc and put in my USB i started browsing my Veterans rotation.. i missed them pla..while I was browsing it one by one, me mga stories each na sbrang ntatawa ako.. hay namimiss ko ung mga pre-GD sa betterhalf, and ung golden phrase na “Interns without may take their lunch”– hahaha

i miss my TEAM “da original PULMO”. i know they misses my FISHBONE too.. hahaha..kz dun nla ako nkilala.. and most especially I miss my 2 buddies kuya phil and yohan..na nkikita ko plang mukha nla natatawa nko at buong araw na un..

haY!!

Baby girl

There are time when I look in your eyes
I see the love that we share
I see the Joy inside

But i didnt see the feelings you hide
And Now your saying good bye
Because your love is done

And All i can think about is you
The way you say You love me to
And everytime i close my eyes I see your face

My love can never be erased
If you can never be replaced

Baby…

(Chorus)
Baby girl
why dont you come back to me
Why dont you love me anymore
Baby girl, you know i still care for you
You know i will love you forever more

There are times when i kiss you goodinght
I feel the love that we share
I feel the joy inside

But i didnt feel what you tried to hide
and now your saying good bye
because you feeling is done

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face

My love can never be erased
If you can never be replaced

( chorus 4x )

All i can think about is you
Till you say you love me too
And everytime I close my eyes
all i see is your face
My love can never be earased
if you can never be replaced

I think God will explain

Theres a lot of things I understand,
And theres a lot of things,
That I dont want to know.
But youre the only face,
I recognize, its so damn sweet of you,
To look me in the eyes.
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,
The scent of vaseline,
In the summertime,
The feel of an ice cube,
Melting over time,
The world seems bigger than both of us,
Yet it seems so small,
When I begin to cry.
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,
Im so much better than you guessed,
Im so much bigger than you guessed,
Im so much brighter than you guessed.
Its all right, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain,
I believe Im the same,
I get carried away
Its alright, Im o.k.,
I think God can explain
Im relieved, Im relaxed,
Ill get over it yet,
Ill get off of your back,
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain.
I think God can explain.

i was too pre-occupied so many things last wednesday.. i almost faint due to my dysmenorrhea..I was totally bed ridden @ rehab (traction bed) c hot pack on my puson.. i took up meds and so i was grogy not noticing i’m already asleep.  Luckily I am Maam vic was not around and my co-interns were so cooperative hehehe they did not disturb me..  i almost slept for about 3 hours kze wen i got up they were fixing thing up na AC na.. but I was astonished wen I heard that my last rotation will be @ VETERANS. I was so excited ad if there’s an electrifying feeling that runs through my veins.. i was hoping kz before the internship started sna marotate ako dun and GOD was really my garrantor.. hehehe.. but on the other side of the coin,i felt sad cost to cost na naman kmi ni altair..  i did not thought na mkkblik pako @ manang dorm.  I’m so excited..

its alot easier as compared to other center i mean as in heaven center sa homebase.. Neuro ssuport and fortunately i am, i belong to a group c never ending craziness.. now there are 2 patient na nkdeck sken and till now ndi pa cla bumabalik.. vacation mode sa rehab.. no checking of notes (shut!!)until now I don’t put my notes on my patient’s chart (hahaha!!).. i still miss my PCMC days.. surfing net everyday makes me relax after a long day of thinking about Altair-tetay’s war hehehe.. wish I could change everything with just a glimpse.. days runs so slow yet ung pressure sken really buggling me.  4-5 months my college life is over.. hay what lies ahead?i just hope things put into something i’m dreaming of.. I ask my mom if I could take my PT board exms on february and i think she agreed.  Im planning to take NMAT this coming december coz my mom and I were talking f I could continue taking medicine but i don’t think i could.  i’m not that matiyaga as med student does.  but no one knows lets just wait..  i miss night talks and inuman sa dorm .. hirap mglet go weakness ko un e.. till here.. Putang ina..hate it!!!

everyday in PCMC has its own memories to reminisce.. im looking forward pra magbukas pra makasama ko ung mga co-interns ko.  at first, i found it so difficult since i don’t see myself treating PEDIATRICS but its part of our profession anyweiz.  my first weeks would be my adjustment period since this would be my first rotataion with different affliated schools.  total adjustment, new dorm, new co-interns, new patient, new rehab.  but i did’nt noticed things were becoming easier for my last 2 weeks.  i can able to treat pedia s hesitations.  i learned to stand on their own shoe.  i thought i won’t be effective PT but i proven myself wrong..  aside from the fact that i had found new colleagues from UST, FEU, PLM, SJ, UE, MMSU and ptrp.  i learned alot from the center..  actually excited nko to treat pedia sa ibang center feeling k0 kz ang galing ko na in dealing c them.  i wont forget the challenges that came along my way.  as in it happened pa na bumaba self-esteem ko but fortunately i am when i received my DTR’s 2 1/2 day make-up lang whch i nver expected.akla ko i will earn 12 days.. hehehehe.  this would be 1 of the most rmembered GD ever because of GINNO and SUE.  staurday.. sbrang malungkot sa rehab.. lalo na nung pag-uwi ko ng dorm.. mahirap pal tumawid dun pag-nagiisa lalo na pagnsanay ka may mga ksma kng magugulo pagtumatawid.  lalo na c RYAN ng FEU.  and more importantly, my PCMC rotation  would not be complete s YOU… SWEET SEPTEMBER..
    Mamimiss ko ung mga expression ni sir GINNO. ang FES, s0-much, sos-yal, gud-job–gud-blow.. hehehe
    thank you DAN and CLAIRE for making me feel at h0me.  lalo na c claire for making every so tipid sa food kz nga db MURA mo plang Breakfast, lunch and dinner ko n apti midnight snack..  hehehe.. i’l be missing you both..

RECIPE OF MY PCMC rotation

1. Kevin– the Impersonator (GINNO)
2. ate apple– my BOSS
3. Jaja– Chikamate
4. Haga– BaSketbaLL Adict khit naulan hehehe
5. Efel– OFB mate
6. Vinch– Pinakatoxic na intern AWARD
7. Ryan–BEST buddy;Great shoulder to cry on..
8. RG– Picture aDdict
9. Zeus–RG’s hidden admirer (joke!!);Picture aDdict 2
10. Nok– Pinakamaraming ABSENT award
11. Ate jeth– "best kumare"
12. Eilu– da Supervisor
13. Dix– Richy Rich da mysterious GUY
14. SEan– the SchoLar
15. Sir GiNNO– sHowmakKer
16. T’ SUe– Da BaLLeriNa
17. Maam Ruby– StafF buDdy– my ADVICER
18. Roselle, baby diana, aaliyah, Colleen (my friend), and matt– my patients; ,y inspiration
19. Keesen– secreT!!!
20. Mr.Bean– my favorite TOY

hehe..sya maginternship..cympre namimiss ko ung RMRC first baby ko un..  tpos ung procare sbrang dmi kong natutunan sa knila.. ky mam moi.. miss ko clang lhat.. miss ko rin ung mga patients dun na sbra akong nattached .. ngyon sa Angono ko this would be my first time na magddorm nakakalungkot pero ok lang dun naman c EPAy to help me out..till next month.. 

ApRiL:  RMRC-Taft

MaY:  pROCARe-BF Parañaque

juNe:  Angono meDics

juLy: CORP

augUsT:  SDMC

sePtember:  PCMC (shit!! i Love it)

ocT-DEc:  UMC

jan: PEace

WIN

Dark is the night
I can battle the storm
Never say die
I’ve been down this road before
I’ll never quit
I’ll never lay down, mm
See I promised myself that I’d never let me down

[1] - I’ll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I’ll never fail
I’ll just get up and try again

Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There’s much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I’m not looking for place ashore
I’m gonna win

I’ll stop at nothing
There’s still a ways to go, oh
Someway, somehow
Whatever it takes, I know
I’ll never quit, no no
I’ll never go down, mm, mm
I’ll make sure they remember my name
A hundred years from now

[Repeat 1]

When it’s all said and done
My once in a lifetime will be back again
Now is the time
To take a stand
Here is my chance
That’s why I…

[Repeat 1]

Mmm, I’m gonna win

this week turned out not so well.. it seems that whatever i do poured into worst…bsta..we started our last cluster and so far wla pa ko napapasang POST lec and PRE-lec.. i was pre-occupied wid different things..but fortunately GOD never leave me.. i just pray to HIM, confine all my problems and somehow unti-unti ng nssolve.. masyado na ko nasstress.. dmi ko namimiss and it wud end up bursting of tears.. hay.. cguro kze i get involve if someone confine me about their problems and cympre ako naman it adds sa mga iniicp ko..  khit sa bhay i guess thats my purpose in life.. i should not dwell too much on it i just divert it doing things na sbrang nrerelieve mga un.. thanks for listening..