KRISTINE

• june 1     my MOFO_TOto
• june 2     its my Red-Letter day @ 20

                       deYdey, my friend

                       maggie, elementary classmate

• june 3    menard, elementary classmate
• june 7    ate lebs, my ever loyal friend HS
• june 10   pau, nephew
• june 11   dad
• june 12   kikay, my childhood friend, neighbors kmi..
• june 19   mom on 51

Ang bilis mo naman kmi iniwan.. Sbi mo pa nga sa Hospital bbli mo pa ko ng cellphone sa retirement mo. Bilis lang dati rati umuuwi ko d2 nand2 ka pa sa sofa nakaupo tpos paguwi ko mkikita kita nsa Hospital ka and nagssuffer sa mga sakit mo. Ginawa naten lhat para maging okey ka pero cguro gusto na ni God and i Guess your mission here on earth is over. Pano ba yan wala ng makikita mga kapitbahay naten na parating nakabike, tataya ng lotto hapon2, masugid na manonood ng discovery channel at magluluto ng masasarap ng ulam sa gabi.. Miss na miss na kita.. Wala na magbibigay sken ng 5 peso coin weekly and wala na in ko i mmassage paguuwi ako. Npakalaki ng help na ginwa mo saken at lalong lalo na skeng family..

Thank you kze kaw tumayong daddy saken nung Highschool ako, sa mga luto mo, sa mga punchline mo, and more importantly kze nging part ka ng buhay naming mgkkapatid.. Ang ganda ng sbi ng priest DEATH is a departure from earth arrival to heaven.. Ndi ko sau magssory kze ndi naman tau nagaway.. i’l be missing you toto bert.. your always in my prayers khit alam ko nsa heaven kna..iLuvu..see you soon

Loveyou,
Kristine

ON MY OWN

I’m wiser now
I’m not the foolish girl you used to know
So long ago
I’m stronger now
I’ve learned from my mistakes which way to go
And I should know
I put myself aside to do it your way
But now I need to do it all alone
And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don’t care if I’m right or wrong
I’ll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I’ll keep it real you know
Time for me to do it on my own
Yeah yeah, mmm, yeah yeah

I am not afraid to try it on my own
And I don’t care if I’m right or wrong
I’ll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I’m gonna keep it real you know
It’s time for me to do it
See I’m not afraid

"If You’re Not The One"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I’ll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my HUSBAND?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

i missed everything about you.. yung text mo na sbrang heart-melting messages.. teary-eyed ako everytime i think of you.. knina nga while i was having my OSPE i can’t avoid thinking of you, your voice that makes me strong all throughout the day.. God has a reasons why HE was doing it.. Sna i could help you somehow in deciding what GOd wants you to be. I would be glad and fulfilled seeing you happier than I am.. .. Thank you for helping me realizing that LIFE is unpredictable and we just have to be careful in everything we do and for deciding kung ano ba tlaga makakapagpasaya sken in the end and will bring me at the zenith of my success.. i just hope this would not be the end because i wud treasure our friendship, your company, your inspirational message, for bringing me more closer to GOD and of course for allowing me to see your world. u will always here in my heart whatever happens.ISa ka sa pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko…

1 week na since the classes started.. and i didnt feel that it was.. kze dmi na kgad ginagawa.. first day of quizzes and recitation sa tingin mo ba u would be able to think that its first day of school well anyweiz COLLEGE na nga pla ko..hehe.. tomorrow we will be having a MS CLUSTER exams for the past weeks of lessons starting before Christmas break until today’s lectures.. i am just hoping that i could be able to surpass all this things and soon i will be known as a successful Woman in the generation.. how i wish..

DECEMBER 28, 2006.. ganda grabe.. AMAZING.. sna i have someone besides me.. How i wish..

Last night, we had Christmas party my family alone since my 2 siblings would not spend Christmas eve with us so we decided to scheduled it yesterday December 18.. I invited Altair to come with us and i was really surprised kze nga sbi nya nahihiya cya. Buong araw ko na ata cya kinulit pero wla pa ring effect yet He has planned pla to attend..  masaya kwentuhan, inuman kmi magkakapatid.. we had a chance pra ireminisce lahat ng past Christmas namin especially nung mga bata palang kmi.. Since we were grown ups now we really had no time for each other may mas mga priorities na kmi.  2 of us were already married and had their own families.,. Nakita ko na tlgang sbrang happy na MOM and DAD ko.  My niece JULIA, our entertainer, really shown her talents.. May crush nga cya ky ALtair.. kze nung dumating c altair she was so pahanga. She used to call him TITO pa hah?hehe.. Lalo pa kming sumaya when we got into EXCHANGE GIFTS,we were all excited tlaga.

Everyone seems so happy.. it was our first Christmas party.. and hopefully it’ll be every Xmas na..

i wrote this last year pa i just finished it lastnight

for almost  18 years of my life, there’s so much hatred and insecurities living within my system.. But when I thought LIFE is so cruel, something happened to change my entire being forever.

I tried to conditioned myself of not expecting too much from others.  Almost always, I lived each day independently.  Some thought i’ve live a very fullfilling LIFE>  I can easily put these dilemma @ the back of my head and pretending to live an EXCITING FUN-RIDE of reality.

But GOD has always the means of surprising us.  One day He touched me and my LIFE was entirely changed.  A new beginning it was for me.  A pessimistic I am, I never tried loving again.  After 2 years of undergoing a recovery from a broken heart, I really despise the idea of opening it once more.  But during my stormy days my faith with the LORD grew deeper despite of this miserably LIFE I’m living.

Not until I met ALTAIR, also a PT student.  The once magic I experienced on my first love is just the same when my eyes first laid on my countenance.   WEEK after, I was able to converse with HIM thru text. There’s something in me that thunderstriked so hard after it was all happened.  Little I know, this would open a GATE for the one gift of LOVE.  Something that bind us closer together was that one incident we rolled into laughter.

Weeks go on and I found myself falling deeper for HIM.  I can say that HE was the most willingly BUDDY to listen.. God did’nt cease me from loving HIM.  He did a lot of way for me to see him more often though we’re different schedule..  DECEMBER 9, 2004, we’re officially on. Though it wasnt that romantic and I was not prepared, I know i love him and I want to spend the rest of life with ALTAIR>>>

Our class was divided into 2 group and was divided into subgroups consist of a partner.. we were 3 since our assingned prof needs apatient so volunteer myself na.. After one exercise nakikipractice nlang ko sa ibang partners. khit ndi ko naperfect ung retdem after each session, what important is that I understood all  the exercise na itunuro.. Actually mas naintindihan ko nga kze naramdaman ko ang actually feeling of being treated..redundant na.. I really enjoyed the day ndi ko nga naramdaman na its FRIDAY again.. HAPPY WEEKENDS>